To know who you are and still be wide open to change is a terrifying and beautiful thing…
I sit here on the eve of embarking on a most playful, joyful yet daring experience of my life, and I cannot be anything but simply exploding with gratitude. How is it that there is so much chaos and turmoil in this world, and I of all people, am lucky enough to buy this ticket? To take this ride…. To be able to take the time and bask in this creativity… To celebrate the fullness and richness of life? I do know how lucky I am.
And perhaps, how selfish it can seem, to choose to spend my time in such way, I wonder? I suppose I might have chose to stay grounded and make money back home? One could choose to spend time at Standing Rock, supporting our environment and planet. Or wrapping myself up in politics, maybe that would have given more meaning to my actions?
I try not to second guess myself anymore, but rather look at the assets of the present situation. 70,000 of the most creative problem solvers on this planet are about to convene in the middle of nowhere, in costume non-the-less, it is a divine intervention. There are many critical issues today on our planet, perhaps creativity is the quickest pathway to solving many of these challenges? I do not pretend to know solid answers, but I do know my own worth as a participant in a community of artists and thinkers… so let the brainstorms begin. I must honor the path that has been set before me, and be grateful for this experience, that is at the forefront of my mind.
As I leave an old world behind and step into a new one, it is with no fear and strong intentions that I humble myself, and allow for change to manifest.
I write this to, you, my friends and family, as though it were my last words coming from the Sara Nicole you think you might know, because after this next week, I am grateful that everything about who I am will be different. Really every moment is a chance to shed your skin and become a new person, sometimes it’s just easier in a place so open and loving as Black Rock City. I could not be more excited about this next phase of evolution.
My prayer? Please, open my eyes. Grow my heart. Pull me closer and set me free. USE ME, Universe, how I was meant to be.
Lastly, may you all know how you each have helped propel me and shape me into the proud artist and poet I have become, and know that I am forever grateful for your patience, encouragement as well as for your own openness and bravery. YES YOU! If you are reading this, know that you have impacted my life in a positive way, and we will continue to make positive changes in this chaotic world, one word, one connection at a time. Look at us… we are an interconnected network of creativity and resources. I truly look forward to coming back from this experience with more clarity and insight on what move to make next, as an individual and as a part of a community, with complete confidence and competence. I am home.
Until we meet again,