“Creating all this drama while running from our trauma” Professor Nightlife Jones
“Despite all my rage, Im still just a rat in a cage!” – Jai Love
I’ve come to love the sound of the recycling jingling in and out of cans outside my bedroom window on the street below…. not because of the environmental implications, I mean, but because it sounds like home. My home, now. Life on Clement. 94118. I chose this very place, of all the towns and cities in the United States, I picked here. The Inner Richmond. Why? Many reasons. Fate. Chance. Coupled with my proximity to work in Tiburon at the synagogue, and for a variety of other factors involving landscape, environment, proximity and creativity, this is my home of choice. My sanctuary. My center. The eye of my storm.
That’s not to say I don’t doubt myself everyday. Did I make the right choice? Pick the right city? The right job? The right part of town. I KNOW that I picked the right partner, thank goodness, and I am grateful everyday for that clarity. So why have I been so…. disillusioned? So unhappy. What more could I want?
Yes, I do miss my family. But I like it here. I like who I have become. I’m not as sweet as I used to be, but much kinder and smarter, I’d like to think. Rougher. More careful with my energy and time and space. Protective. A mamma bear. I work out now, sort of. I actively DON’T eat cheese at every meal. I don’t smoke… near as much as I used to. I don’t weigh myself down with unnecessary bullshit and small talk with people I don’t care about. So where are these giant waves of sadness coming from? Are they a part of me? Or maybe much bigger than me? Generations larger than I can possibly comprehend, it seems.
And I am open to it. I asked to understand, the human condition. I remember at six-years-old asking for answers of the universe. I read Conversations with God and the Four Agreements at an early age, and lots of other spirituality self help type books that seemed reasonably informative. I remember adults protecting me from the truth, for the same damn reasons we protect our own hearts and tune out our own minds when it’s convenient, which is more often than not these days. Every night we feel the need to turn the volume up or down, it seems. To alter our current state, because reality is not pretty.
And sure, we can blame it on mercury in retrograde, or the solar storms, or claim we are just products of our environment, and that’s nice, to put a name on it. A blame. “Survival of the fittest”, gone wrong. Of course, I am not niave enough to think it is all outside consequences no, I am open to it being all my fault. By no means is my life perfection; though I wouldn’t have had it any other way. The amount of beauty and joy I have been shown far outweighs and exceeds the haunting of mistakes and misdeeds, that me and those who came before have scored. Everything we know is constantly in a stage of flux and transition; growing, changing, building, maintaining. Disruption. Creation. On repeat. New twist. Developed plots thicken. We grow sicker. We discover a cure. It is true, that I have grown sicker, weaker, sadder. And it has been very hard for me to admit that to myself, because once you give it power, then it changes, right?
Upon reflecting of my past, my relationships gone wrong, friendships failed, I have grown discouraged. Though admitting your mistakes is the first step to changing the future. Please know that if I haven’t followed through or reached out to you lately, and I was supposed to, please forgive me. Life has been like a god damn tornado. I lived my whole life in Kansas thinking I’d never seen a tornado, until I got to San Francisco and realized that the tornado was all around me. I was the calm.
Somehow, I’ve thrown myself out of orbit. What was once an eye is now a limb, a gust, an upheaval of old foundation crumbled to new. As I continue to stumble down this dumbfounded road, seeing new walks of life, some pristine and some soot, I recognize my own depression is a result of years of neglect and emotional instability, from my own actions but also from the gusts of wind from other storms, other atmospheres, colliding. Exhausted. Worn.
The storm comes and goes, and so does my vulnerability. As I continue to try and be as present and available to others all the while taking care of my own sanity. I want to do more. I aim to do more. I will not give up on doing more, for myself and for my community.
Sometimes it is as simple as switching your medication.
Sometimes, it’s as simple as saying something. Speaking up.
Saying I’m sorry if you have to.
Admitting your truth and finding your next step.
Sourcing the pain, so you can work on healing the wound.
My friend taught me a learning recently. She said “Sara, you’ve been so open, you’re forgetting to protect yourself”. And then she taught me to clear. After years of being an empath, I now am aware of the consequences of neglecting that power.
“Thank you (insert higher being here)
for clearing all draining and negative energy chords
in all directions of time. “
» three deep breaths – then follow with «
“Thank you (insert higher being)
for shielding me with 1000 feet of silver light
in all directions of time. And so it is”
-From April King_
Ripples that we make go everywhere, in all directions. We make them constantly- some microscopic and some so big we can’t even see that it’s a wave.
I Invite you, to be careful what you put in motion, as it may not turn out like you thought. You may not even be thinking about it consciously at all. Luck is chance and fate is a game. Back and forth. Sometimes you win sometimes you loose and you don’t have to play. You choose to feel it all or feel nothing. Both have consequence. Balance is only possible with out attachment and then constant upkeep of the body soul and mind / space we occupy. None of it matters and it all matters we all could argue reasoning for both. We are that enlightened. And yet we are our own enemy. We hold each other back. We fight the way of nature. We protect what we have know we hold onto tradition and the sacred for dear life maybe for a good reason maybe not. Sometimes both. The complexities of chance and fate and intentions at work here are astronomical unpredictable. The equation is long and the ripples are strong. Waves so big you may not even notice it.
In this day of age we are all ripe and raw. We are BOTH sides of the coin and the paradox. We are all misconceptions. We could all argue both sides of the fence. So be careful what you say and always tell the truth. If you have the facts and integrity and kindness you will come out ahead and if for no one else but yourself. Be your own karma. Don’t forget to breath through it all. I love you. I’m working it out just as you are. Maybe you’ve learned something and have something to teach me. Don’t hold back; please, we need your voice.
“It’s about planting a seed, letting it grow
Nourish it, flourish is, give it grow, flow,
Water it down until the roots take hold
from the leaves on the trees to our breaks get old
Cultivate relationship millions of years,
Keep it strong, erase thereof fears.
Don’t you let no producer tell you that you can’t,
Just make sure you’re careful which seeds you plant”
-MissConception, 2009, Plantin’ a Seed-
I study the mountains
like I study the curve of a woman
Like the way I stare deep into your eyes
looking to lift the disguise from your gaze
Like how we listen to old stories the
the mountains tell it…
Every rock and groove a lifetime of moves and slip.
Each hill a gift to the present.
Every dry river bed has a past documenting the history of lifetimes,
and oh, how I’ve missed you.
Poetry as Personal Power
What helps you get through tough times in your life?
Poetry for Personal Power is a Midwest based non-profit organization designed to do the virtually unheard of. Poetry for Personal Power, or P3 for short, provides health care messaging via community prevention info that manifest through paid gigs for sponsored artists. Essentially, P3 has been allowing artists to use poetry and music to address mental health and wellness in the community, in order to improve the community at large… and it’s working!
Specifically focusing on youth audiences and underprivileged communities, P3 hosts workshops, poetry readings, performances, and events of all shorts to get young people talking about mental health and wellness and what it means for them to deal with the struggles and complications of life. Also known as peer support, P3 strives for a 70% hospital reduction rate, while intimating health care advocacy and research.
“What helps you through adversity? We are now in our seventh year with over 150 events per year, 75 sponsored artists and advocates in 7 regions, and research and peer support programs in full pilot trial modes! We are building a national replication process to share health care messaging, promote resilience in nonprofits, and increase the number of peer support programs. We are becoming an evidence based resilience messaging campaign with sponsored artists. We are also increasing Wellbeing Impact in host organizations with sponsored advocates.” -Poetry for Personal Power Website
So how can you get involved?
In 2017, the Kansas Mental Health coalition (KMHC) has a $120K grant to teach artists how to become citizen lobbyists. They are looking to pay stipends to people to learn to use arts and advocacy together to support social justice. Poetry for Personal Power and KMHC are doing a free one day training on March 14 for artists and advocates. P3 would like to invite anyone to attend, especially youth or young adult advocates. You can apply here to attend that training: http://kansasmentalhealthcoalition.onefireplace.com/event-2168073
Also, Poetry for Personal Power has a $5,000 grant to support youth and young adult artists from Kansas who want to become tobacco prevention advocates.
You can apply here: http://poetryforpersonalpower.com/artist-entrepreneur-supports/event-replication-application/
If you are interested in the Poetry for Personal Power initiative, you can always email email@example.com for more info, or text 816-392-6074.
One of the best parts about Poetry for Personal Power is that the organization is actually paying artists to facilitate these actions and events. You can check out artist profiles on the website here. Get involved. Get excited. And get ready, because P3 is about to revolutionize the way we look at healthcare, via ART!
Poetics: Life Sentences
Make it our mission to listen to the beat, as children we tap tap our feet.
Songwriter Swap at The Tank Room
Featuring Prim-1, MissConception & Professor Nightlife Jones. We took this opportunity in downtown KC on a Thursday night to show off our wordplay skills. This is the entire 1 hour and 45 minute set of passing the mic back and forth and just seeing what unfolds. So much magic can happen if you don’t try and control it. ENJOY the show from home folks!
You can catch different artists at the Song Writers Swap, hosted by Damon Bailey, every Thursday night, 9 to midnight at The Tank Room on 18th and Grand.
You can catch MissConception and the crew back at The Tank Room on Friday, July 25th.
Saraswati Album Release 3/15
Guess what BLOGGERS? Since YOU are interested in me, I am interested in releasing my album to you FIRST! It is now available on Bandcamp (though not announced publicly) for you to download, FOR FREE, to soak in, and even give me some feedback if you’d like! ENJOY!
Listen to it, and if you love it and think it’s worth something, SEND IT TO SOMEONE ELSE. Maybe you even think it’s worth something, and donate a few dollars. Every share and every dollar count. This is a movement. Creating understanding and asking questions. And it starts with music.
When was the last time you listened to an album all the way through from start to finish? Pink Floyd’s Dark Side of the Moon? (three times in a row with the wizard of oz?) Was it the Grey Album by Dr Dre? Or maybe…..
I’ve always been so fascinated by conceptual works of art, pun intended. Concepts and missed concepts and misconceptions abound, and sometimes things so serendipitously come together, you’re not even sure it really happened at first. It’s happening to you. And turning you on in a way you never felt possible.
And that’s what I want this new album release to do for the listener. To start them on a journey of thinking, and spin them out into infinity and back again feeling stronger and more beautiful every second. Planting, seeding, sewing, dreaming up new schemes.
So imagine that, you know nothing. You sit down, and you have no idea where it’s about to take you. All you know, is that it starts with this Goddess, Saraswati. Who is the Hundi entity of knowledge, sound, creativity and song. And you push play.
The first track, Saraswati, explains this divine image’s work within the Hindu construct, and is a continuous channel for this divine energy to come through and shine. It is, whatever you make it to be. We should all embrace our inner diva goddess and celebrate our divinity. Saraswati gives us permission to be wildly creative, and enjoyably odd in our own skin. Embrace it. Ole!
The 2nd Track, along with the 3 other Charlie/Chuckey/Charles Bradley interludes mixed by Purusa, represent the reverse-commercial interludes of the album. Creating space for one to not be overridden by messages, but to process that which has been put forth. Today’s Bradley mix is being brought to you by the letter Q, as in Quinly. Pay attention. They fly by pretty quickly these days, those moments of clarity.
Bringing us to Track 3, All on Black – A dustup cover of Alkaline Trio’s song done to an Evil Bastards glitch hop track. We’ve been in a dark dark place. Not everything is pretty. Moderation is key. And sometimes, the Pheonix must die to be risen again brand new from the ashes…. like the shedding of our skin …. we are all brand new every day, and we have all killed off parts of ourselves that no longer served our highest good.
Track 4 – Fast Forward Rewind – an sharp Ode to generation overdose. Matters not to be taken lightly…. but sung about with great conviction, and destitute. This song began as a tribute to a young man who didn’t know how much he had to offer, like so many of us troubleshoot daily. You are special. What you do matters. This song in the album is where we admit to what has not been working in the past, and commit to not ignoring it in the future. Dealing with your shit, from way back in the day if you need to, so you can move forward with a clean consciousness and resolute attitude.
Scary Tale is a transcendental reminder of the darker sides of even brighter lights…. beginning with our childhood and moving into our sexuality, this combined spoken word piece gives us permission to be empowered. To be open. To be FREE. No matter your age or shoe size. Or chest size. This song is a cultural examination of the path that led us so far down this rabbit hole in the first place…. from advertising cartoons to childhood ruins, as we grow up and out, we grow to understand that our environment plays such a huge part in how we are sharped today, individually and collectively.
Left Turn – the AH HA moment of the compilation. Our Day of Atonement has arrived. Every day can be a day of atonement, with its own attitude and charm. This particular track is a freestyle piece that is often sung differently every time. It’s general theme is about owning your power and freedom, and not being afraid to proclaim “this is what I’m here to do!” So mote it be.
ReVerb turns us onto the beauty of wordplay poetica, a sample remixed from a Charles Bradley tune. If I was a reverb, I’d spin in absurd days, and play disturbed games, mostly on thursdays…. This song serves as an attempt to reintroduce myself, as not only the misconception you thought you knew, . I am not limited to one specific thing. I am you. I am consciousness. You are Sara Glass. We can channel Saraswati, should we choose to. We can do WHATEVER we want to! (Always with love)
Holy Days – So what does it mean to have a holy day, and honor it? Full moon gatherings and solstices are coming on strong. Mercury Retrograde getting along. Taking us to the Insomniac Olympics, our focal point and climax of the album. Here, is where we stop, and really observe, just what is going on. God is a Verb, that’s just what I heard. And we all have a story to tell…
Devil’s Soul moves into just what embarking on such sacraments can lead to…. lust and love and all of the above. And somewhere down the rabbit hole, let it Beatles take you back over the rainbow to an ending of unique proportions. One of the first things I wrote as a young writer in college, was my Eulogy. I’d like to dedicate this album, to the man who will read it someday.
NamastE. And THANK YOU for listening. Now please, GO, share it with someone else! Keep the message alive…
“I believe in true love, in free love and equality for everyone inside that love. I believe. In the power. Of Love”
How about that… two blog post in one week. That’s what you get if you’re paying attention 🙂
Poetry, is often defined as “the art of paying attention” – Mark Hennessy.
I think of myself as a poet above all other art forms. As writers, we pay attention to the world around us, streamline it into a concept comprehendible, we pay attention to our audience while delivering and the hardest job of all falls on the audience, who must pay attention to our words and perspective in order to enjoy the work in its entirety. It’s really a beautiful process, the act of writing. Sometimes I wake up and think “I should write a BOOK!” But then I remember this blog….and think “what Ferlinghetti or Bukowski wouldn’t GIVE to have such immediate access to the ‘masses'”…. and I carry on with dignity. Instant gratification. Read it and weep, or carry on as if nothing happened. Either way, my job here is on it’s way (and never done).
Story: So last night, I decided to proceed with my 6th month ritual of dying my hair with henna. It’s a beautiful indian powder that dies skin (and hair) a reddish brown. It also makes the hair thicker, stronger and more secure, so I don’t worry too much about breakage and damage. It’s something sacred I feel that connects me to ancestors of the past, and I look forward to the lengthy process.
First I mix the henna with water, lemon juice and essential oils the night before. I let it sit about 24 hours in the fridge before applying to my hair. Usually, the application is very tricky because this stuff is highly prone to dying whatever it is touching. So you either work fast with your hands, or you glove up and hope for the best.
After messing with the gloves for a few minutes during the initial application, I was not being as successful as I had hoped. The gloves are slick and I have little control… when it dawned on me “our ancestors didn’t have plastic gloves for protection, hell no”. So I lost the gloves and dove in with my fingers, spreading the thick dark green paste all over my head as quickly and delicately as possible. It only took about 10 minutes once de-gloved, and it was a much easier process.
Washing my hands after applying, I noticed they were already stained a bit orange! “Uh oh…. this isn’t going to look well at Hebrew school on Wednesday”, I thought. (I was tempted to draw a third eye with the henna, but the fact that I teach Hebrew to middle schools on Wednesday kept me from having to explain myself).
Now, looking down at my orange hands brought me back to a time in my 3rd grade classroom, sitting next to a young Indian woman named Sasha Kaun. She wore the full Indian head covers and burkas, and she always smelled a bit odd (for 3rd grade). One day, I remember she came to school with bright orange hands! It looked as if she’d taken a highlighter to her hands and colored them all in! It was somewhat distracting and when the teacher noticed, she yelled at her, insisting she go scrub it off immediately.
I remember Sasha crying, and trying to mumble in her broken english that it was a religious thing, and that she had been playing with dye. Henna. I couldn’t fathom at the time what on earth she was talking about, but I understood for the first time that some people come from VERY different places, and that looking at each other’s lives from a different perspective can be something to treasure, not something to chastise. What if the teacher had taken that opportunity to explain to the class what the art of henna was, and how it might be used by different cultures. The opportunity was missed, but not lost for those of us paying attention. Years later, I understand, and I wish I could find my school aged friend and tell her how much respect I have for her. For not being afraid to wear her culture on her skin.
I haven’t thought about that day in elementary school for many years, but looking at my own orange hands, I felt somehow so connected to a place so far away from me. And we humans are so quick to judge… we don’t understand, so we think others are WRONG, instead of asking questions of compassion and unconditional love.
The next time a poet is brave enough to lay their heart up on a stage, whether or not the delivery is on par, or the content is familiar, I ask you to try and look at it is an opportunity. A three-minute opportunity to go into a place you may NEVER fully know, and to appreciate concepts you may never again have the chance to comprehend. Our consciousness is expanding as quickly as our internet speeds, so enjoy as much of it as possible.
If you ever want to dye your hair au natural with henna…. You can buy some at It’s a Beautiful Day 39th and Broadway 🙂 Recipes are available online. It’s a nice change of pace!
**WARNING – never dye your hair with henna if you have other color or bleach on it… the two do NOT mix. Your hair MUST be natural for it to work***
I’ll leave you with a bit of spoken word…. my Hair Piece:
The auspicious day is approaching… and anyone who likes to have fun likes to have FUN, know what I mean Jean?
Upcoming schemes from MissConvenience:
Saturday, 10/26 9pm until Hell freezes over….
At Black Label Cycles 825 Mullberry St in the West Bottoms
David Hasselhoff On Acid
The Stone Sugar Shakedown
Whiskey for the Lady
Thieves of Flight
The Bombshells as Pinup girls
Bus 2 Show with Somebunny!
Pyro Sun Circus
$20 cover includes beer or $50 open bar
Facebook EVENT: https://www.facebook.com/events/698755456819445/
Make sure you tell them MISSCONCEPTION sent you at the door!
Monthly Goddess Gathering on Sunday, October 27th
Beginning at Mark Blanchardt’s Yoga Studio 4pm for Kirtan
Acro Yoga session with Kristin afterwards at 5504 Troost (6pm)
Bring your Goddess energy, sacred objects, a poem or reading and let’s get into it!
Goddess Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/543754585696722/
Kirtan Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/246051068882602/
Flow-a-Roke 10/27 (7pm) after Yoga (5pm)
Come stretch it out, and then bring your favorite song and flow prop and show off your skills! Everyone will pick a song and get their 3-5 minutes to show off their flow. Think Karaoke, but with Hoops and Poi! Donations accepted! 5504 Troost
Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/170355663169724/?ref=5
Halloween Night: All Hallow’s Eve ShinDig 10/31 8pm at THE SHIP
(1221 Union – enter in the alleyway behind 1221 Union… look for FIRE!)
Live music, DJs, Ambiance, Tarrot Reading, Fire Spinning, S’mores & more
DJ PROZAC & DSpang
$10 Cover / $5 if you dress up
Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/591234154276561/
CiciadaWeen in Lawrence, KS (Abe & Jakes)
Friday, November 1st with BOOMBOX and more!
Facebook Event: https://www.facebook.com/events/219372998218268/
Sonic Temple 2nd Sundays
at the Foundation – November 10th 4-8 pm
Yoga with Gretchen (starts at 4)
Kirtan with Jeri Birdshal 5pm
Music with Harmony Mindzeye 6pm
DJ Bradley 6:30 pm
Juice Bar available
More details coming soon!
Art of Drag: November 16th Uptown Arts Bar 9pm
Featuring Mercury Mad, Brian Maloney, Diamond Dan, Shannon’s Simply Sweet, Cheri Lou Woods and MORE! We aren’t done dressing up yet! You have now been given total permission to go BUCK WILD!
Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/185555681616367/
In the words of Nightlife Jones…
“Thinking that we can’t do this everyday is where we mess up…. so treat everyday like Halloween and DRESS UP”